First day of raya is a ritual for us to go to My grads. What made it special this year is when we had a family group photo with the whole family. Seeing the face of joy made me forget about what had happen about a year ago. Just wished that my father was in the picture. Moving on, we went back to Tutong, we came in abit late. My grand fater tought we had forget about him. It was even more harder for him as he lost his first son. I spent a couple of mins talking to him in his room. We missed out a couple of houses as it was raining havely and that mummy is not a big fan of driving in the rain.
We came back home early that night. it was not normal. But then i had a long day so i agreed to go home. Yet again, i went out that night With a friend. We went to the Mall. haha (tell me about it) It was just for me to kill time, it hurts to be home hearing the sound of "takbir". It just kills me softly inside.
My 2nd day was very weird. I had lost my raya mood. I feel like i was just going to an occasion or something. We went back to masin, to visit my father's side. Right after that i went back to my second family's place. Because they had their open house. So i spend the whole night there. It was someone's birthday at the same time and he came. It was funny, i kinda get the hang of seeing him every now and then. lols.
My 3rd day raya was "busy". We had an open house, it was tirying.
This is some extract from my personal blog;
I've been having mix feelings these few days. I don't know whats wrong but i
know it has to do with the up coming event.So, People keep on asking if i am excited for Hari raya but clearly i dont
know what to say. Part of me says "yes i am" another part of me says that im
not.Raya this year will be different. Knowing the fact that we have school on the
6th of raya. *joyy. And that Its only going to me Mummy & I. Abang decidec
to leave and not to join us for raya so he went back to Switzerland few months
back. On the other hand, my first brother will start his raya days in tutong at
my sister in law. So basically Mummy and I will be the only one who will be
visiting my "pertuan". I cant wait for the argument about how stupid this person
drives and the stressful moment on how mummy will park the car. LOLS.Another thing is that i feel left out. I miss my friends.
sighIm gonna end it here.
"Tiada kata-kata yang indah selain "ku minta maaf". Tiada bulan yang inda
selain ketibaan bulan syawal. Di sini ku inda mengucapkan kata-kata yang indah
iaitu selamathari raya idul adha, maaf zahir dan batin."happy Eid Mubarak.
**i'll be on hiatus. will post pictures soon after i settled down.
